Mirror, Mirror on the Wall

Oh how I wish that the mirror didn’t reflect everything it saw. Today was not a day that I wanted to see how unattractive my backside looked but that’s exactly what I got.

For all of you real women out there, you may know exactly what I mean. For those of you who don’t know, count that as a blessing. But, yes, I must admit, I saw my backside in the mirror today.

I’m not going to go into detail just how or with what clothing that it happened but, it did, and I was not happy. The reflection that I saw made me feel like I was still 236 pounds. Obviously, I am not, but the image that I saw just kind of overwhelmed me with a sinking, gut-wrenching feeling.

Instead of feeling all depressed about it, I took that as an inward challenge. Someday, even though that day may not be soon, I want my derriere to look nice, to be firm, and to be smaller!!! My legs need some work too! I want those to be toned, smaller, and possibly tanned (although pale isn’t a color that I’m ashamed of).

Even though that mirror is sometimes absolutely dreadful, it’s helpful in a way if you look at it with the right attitude. I still don’t want to see those images again, but now that they are burned into my retinas, my challenge should be a constant focus.

On to a different subject. Weigh Day was today and as some of you know, I kind of expected to be back in the 170’s. While that is something I’m not excited about, it was expected considering the week that I had.

For one thing, food was (and unfortunately, still is) scarce. PJ and I have hit a little bit of a dry patch and have had to sacrifice grocery shopping for a few weeks. That means that we are trying to make things last longer. This is probably known as the “Casserole Diet.” A while ago, we bought a 25 pound bag of rice and didn’t really eat much of it until these last few weeks came along. PJ has been combining different condiments as well as the chicken that we did have and making rice casseroles.

Also, every time I did go shopping, I always thought we were running out of wheat noodles, so I would always buy a box or two. Well, during these scarce times, we had that pasta so we’ve been flip-flopping between rice and pasta. Rice and pasta…Carbs, carbs, carbs. Not so wonderful when you are counting calories and trying to get enough to not be hungry. We are surviving though, so everything is alright. We should be seeing better days soon. :D

To add to the fact that the diet has been kind of crappy lately, whenever I open the empty fridge, I usually scan for about 30 seconds and then shut it finding no satisfaction. When PJ opens the fridge, he sees some kind of casserole or sauce or something that he can make that we will both enjoy. Lol. I’ve never had that ability to just throw stuff together and make it work, so that’s a downfall when I am hungry. A lot of the times, I will just wait until PJ opens the fridge and decides to add a little of this and a little of that and create “genius and delicious!” Sometimes that could be hours so I usually snack on water or just don’t eat. <<bad, bad, bad!!

Like I said though, we will be seeing better days soon. PJ just got a new job and we will have full cupboards once again.

Enough about that now. The workout today was Chest and Back. I’ve detailed this a few weeks ago and it still hasn’t changed. Lol. I got up at a normal time for those of us who do not have children and didn’t have to work till 11pm. (11:50am), got ready, then started my workout. It wasn’t bad but for some reason, I didn’t feel the burn that I usually do. Perhaps I need to up my weights to 10lb or something?? Anyway, I finished that and then started Ab Ripper X. I FELT THAT ONE!! Thankfully, it only lasted the duration of the exercise and I can actually sit and stand up without muscle pain.

Tomorrow is Plyometrics and I am debating whether or not I should do it as soon as I get home from Audit (7:00am) or wait until I get a good nap in and then do it. I am leaning more toward 7:00am just so that I can get it done and still have some energy to do some other things before a nap. I shall see.

Results of Weigh Day: 172.2lb this morning, 171.4lb before work…

Signing Out,

Even though it may take a while, It’s Possible!!