Today was Day 30 of Insanity!! This means that I am “officially” half-way through!! I am very excited to have reached this point but a little confounded by the results. In 30 days, I have only lost about 6 pounds. (Which isn’t bad, but it’s not necessarily what I wanted to happen. I think I’d have been happier with a 10 pound loss.) Either way, a loss is a loss and I have and will not give up on my ultimate goal. Every step toward my goal is progress. I’m thinking that I will see a bigger loss within the next 30 days. (Every workout for the next 30 days has the word “max” in front of it. So, I’m assuming that it’s a level up from what I had been doing.)
Today was also progress pictures day. My husband took several pictures of me last night in my sports bra and shorts that I always wear while working out. (The shorts hide half of my upper thigh and it’s hard to see where the progress actually is.) So, today, I asked PJ to retake the pictures while I was wearing my bathing suit. In these photos, you can see a lot of progress from the very first pictures I’ve taken. (Sometimes, when I get discouraged, I look at the “before P90X” pictures to encourage me.) The only bad thing about the progress pictures taken today is that there isn’t much of a difference from the pictures taken on day 1. (That is kind of disappointing, but I didn’t really expect 6 pounds to make a whole lot of difference.)
Either way, like I said, I am still losing and still motivated to keep going. This kind of thing is not a sprint, so I shouldn’t expect it to be something that happens quickly. The weight didn’t just appear so it definitely won’t just disappear. While I’ve made much progress, I still have a long way to go.
Speaking of which, my journey may become an even longer one. Over the past few weeks, I have been thinking about what I actually want my body to be like. My goal since starting this journey has been to get down to 130 pounds (which means that I would have to lose 106 pounds from where I started). Lately however, I’ve been examining my body and my thoughts these past weeks have been consistent in that I want visible muscle. I want my arms and legs to be muscular and I want abs. Since I am not sure that the next 42 pounds that I have to lose will get me to this state, my plan is to work until I do. (Unless of course, my plans change again.)
I’ve told only a few people of my plans for a rock solid body and most of them have looked at me with a shocked expression and then question me as to why I think I need to look like that. It’s not that I think I need to look like that, but the fact that I want to. I want to be strong, I want to be thin, and I want to be healthy and in peak condition. I want to start a “new” life especially since children are a plan for my husband and me in the future. I want to be healthy for them and I want to be able to teach them how to be healthy as well. Moreover, I want them to have a personal example. And, since moms have a very big part to play in their children’s’ lives, I want them to see that it is important to be healthy.
I hope that my posts as of late have encouraged someone out there. Losing weight is tough and it seems even tougher on those bad weeks. The important thing is to keep going at it. It’s a process that does pay off and the reward is so worth it!!
Signing Out,
It’s Possible!!
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