Today was Weigh Day and I didn’t want to get out of bed to “jump” on that scale. I “manned up” and did it though and was very disappointed to see that I gained 2.4 pounds!! The scale this morning said 177.0. I literally felt my face start to get hot as I saw though numbers flash on the screen. (My face only feels hot when I am embarrassed.) Yes, I was embarrassed. I was mortified and I really didn’t want to do my workout this morning because I felt like crap. Like my work had not done anything for me the last week and like I was just spinning my wheels. I was very disappointed in myself. VERY!!
I blame it on the food though. I ate poorly near the end of the week (due to a weak will and two boys, who shall not be named, that tempted me into eating such foods.) The food was tasty, but looking back, it was a big mistake to eat it. I told myself that this week needs to be a better week; I need to deny the flesh at all costs and eat only my calorie intake for the day. I don’t need another week like the one I just got!! I was also very tempted to throw away the three bags of El Chico tortilla chips that one of those boys (mentioned above) acquired from his place of employment. I don’t need chips!!
Even though I didn’t want to workout today, I still did. I’m not about to quit on something that I’ve worked so hard for. So, I had a bad week, but that doesn’t mean that I should just stop altogether. I turned on my computer, got my 32 ounces of water, pushed the play button, and did Pure Cardio and Cardio Abs. And, I’m very thankful that I did. I felt much better and am ready to make this week a losing week!! I’m going to say “no” to the bad foods and I am going to get myself away from the situation if I am tempted to eat something that I don’t need to eat. I don’t mean to be rude, but if I have to physically remove myself from the situation, I am going to have to do that. I need to be successful and I’m bound and determined to do whatever it takes.
This is my rant about food:
What is it about food that is so ensnaring? Why do we use food as a method to soothe our emotions or “make everything right in the world?” Why do we have so much junk in this world? We know it doesn’t help us, yet we eat it anyway. It really all comes down to money and the love of money, really (and the fact that it tastes good.) Why do people make junk food: to make money. Kids love junk food, adults sneak-eat it after the kids go to bed and it seems like our world just revolves around food. And, while I’m trying to rid myself of the addiction to food, it seems to always get in my face. I hate that it’s like that, but then again, I have to learn how to be more powerful over my body and I have to win over the temptations that I face. I kinda wish that we didn’t need food to survive. If we didn’t need it so much, I’d probably try to avoid it.
I was kinda hesistant, once again, to post my weight (and the fact that I had gained weight) on the internet for the whole world to see. But, I know I need to because someone who reads it might be in the same predicament as I was when I saw that number: disappointed and questioning the process. Well, the process works, it’s really all about the mental strength when faced with a temptation. And, last week, I didn’t do so well. My only piece of advice is don’t give up, man up! Giving up will not do anything for you except make you gain more weight. If you “man up” to the fact that you just have to work harder and eat better, this will get you a lot farther. So, don’t give up, man up!!
For this next week, I’m gonna “man up” and really take charge. If you offer me something bad to eat, I’ll throw it in your face. Lol. Not really, but I will say “no!!”
Signing Out,
It’s Possible!!
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